13 April, 2008

one month

one month from today i have my first appointment with an endocrinologist to begin hormone therapy. i won't start testosterone on that day, it will probably just be a lot of paper work and talking. but hopefully i can start soon thereafter. it's hard to believe that this possibility is getting closer and closer. i feel like i've been waiting so long and at times hormone therapy didn't even seem possible. the closer my appointment gets the more real this feels. 

i've talked to a bunch of friends about beginning hormones and a lot of them have asked me a similar question: "are you nervous/scared?" i suppose a small part of me is nervous because there is some uncertainty, but mostly i feel ready. beginning hormones means settling into the me i know i am, being able to pass, allowing others to see the me i know i am, aligning my mind, body and soul - and that, as simple as it may sound, is incredibly significant. 


Anonymous said...

"don't nobody know what i'm talkin' about
i've got my own life to live
i'm the one that's gonna die when it's time for me to die
so let me live my life the way i want to
yeah sing on brother
play on drummer"


Elle is a beth said...

You've always been that stud with nice pecs and a tennis racket to me, and I'm really excited for so many more people to see that too.

Lucas you carry spirituality, light and love wherever you go.

So brave, so brilliant, so bold.