one month

one month from today i have my first appointment with an endocrinologist to begin hormone therapy. i won't start testosterone on that day, it will probably just be a lot of paper work and talking. but hopefully i can start soon thereafter. it's hard to believe that this possibility is getting closer and closer. i feel like i've been waiting so long and at times hormone therapy didn't even seem possible. the closer my appointment gets the more real this feels. 

i've talked to a bunch of friends about beginning hormones and a lot of them have asked me a similar question: "are you nervous/scared?" i suppose a small part of me is nervous because there is some uncertainty, but mostly i feel ready. beginning hormones means settling into the me i know i am, being able to pass, allowing others to see the me i know i am, aligning my mind, body and soul - and that, as simple as it may sound, is incredibly significant.