17 April, 2010

poem i wrote

tug-of-war


the pain i feel in my gut
is only present to remind me
of a history i cannot
change, escape or ignore
it is that one sign
that's left over
screaming in my face
and whispering in my ears
biology, biology, biology


it begs me not to forget
but to embrace
the unimaginable path
i've been led down
and the path i've chosen


i as well beg my body
to submit to the
changes of the current
to meet in middle ground
and reveal an accurate rhythm
between past, present and future


as if the three are armored warriors
battling for righteousness
battling to be visible, to be audible
battling for the sheer sake of battling -
the adrenaline, the destruction and the glory


this is a constant battle
and it is the same battle
fought perpetually
within my mind
within these veins
and within this spirit


a battle which calls into question
the union of history and what is to come
of two unmatched lives
and two unmatched people
somehow fusing
to create one entire and whole being
breathing and being now

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Beautiful :)

Anon said...

Lovely. It sounds like it came from your heart. I'm sorry you're suffering so!